Live like its your last day alive. Imagine like you just woke up from the best dream. Dance like no one's watching. Sing like your life depends on it. Create with passion because your Father in Heaven is watching through eyes of love. Take all the limiters off and go all out because life is the most amazing gift ever given. Make God smile because He created you awesome beyond description.

[ Psalm 139:14 - I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works, my soul knows it very well. ] 

Treat me nice... And I'll pray for you. Treat me nasty... And I'll pray for you. Either way, cross my paths and I'm gonna pray for you. Jesus taught me that every encounter is an opportunity for God's grace and love to be shared. It's simply our job to humbly offer His love and leave it up to the recipient to accept or reject it. Anything else I give will eventually fade - but if I give His love it has the power to change lives, bring freedom, and last far beyond this lifetime into forever.  

Hey, If you've read any of the things I write and the stuff I share you've probably already made up your mind about me in regards to a lot of things. I'm sure quite a few of you think I'm that nice guy that says always says the positive things that make you smile. Maybe some of you think "there's that skater guy with the really cool pics..." I'm absolutely sure that there are some out there that just cant stand who I am and think I should just shut my trap. Some of you maybe think "there's that guy that just keeps talking about God again...sheeesh". The ones that have met me may think you know me through and through but what I'm here today to show you is another side of me. A side that's always been there ever since the day I was born. I've been waiting for this day to speak like this for a long, long time and today God gave me permission to do so. What I'm going to say will disturb some and I'm going to be quite graphic for the sake of maintaining the truth and delivering what God has asked me to in the way He wants it to be delivered. Why am I saying this? Simply because I am a servant and a soldier of God and I do what I'm told. I'm doing this for truth and for freedom.


Do I have a hidden agenda? No. Do I run a church or plan to? No. Do I make any money from this? No. Do I want a relationship with you as result of this? No. I'm here to tell my story - plain and simple and to bring a very simple message... Hope. One of the most underrated gifts of God. Hope is the difference between winning and losing a war. And I'm not just here to write a message - I'm here to hold up the head of a giant as proof. My giants name was depression and it nearly killed me. I suffered all my life with it and so did both my parents. After attempting suicide, I was put on anti-depressants and was told that this would be how it is for the rest of my life. That's what the medical world says anyway. No hope, just a pill to numb the never ending pain and immense weight of depression. I just couldn't accept that and it made me search and dig for the truth. I'm not here to tell you the how or the why because the way God sets you free will be vastly different to what He did for me - what I'm simply here to say is this. It can be done. That giant can be defeated and I'm not talking about just having it suppressed with drugs and medication. I'm not talking about a constant daily struggle back and forth. I'm talking about complete and total annihilation. I'm talking about severing it's head from it's body and holding up it for all to see that there is power in the Name of Jesus. More power than you could possibly ever imagine with the mind and intellect you've been given.


I write this today drug free for years completely and totally free of depression. I don't rely on pills, alcohol or anything to maintain my freedom. My freedom comes from Jesus alone and is more than enough to keep me free. I sat in a doctors office after being set free and she asked how I was going on my anti-depressant medication. I laughed and told her "Oh, I don't take that any more!" She seemed quite concerned and asked what I was taking instead. I told her "I'm not taking anything at all and haven't for years. I don't have depression any more. I prayed to God and He took it from me". She then asked if I was doing OK and I told her no, I'm not doing OK. I'm far better than just OK. My life had never ever been this good. She looked at me then at her desk and said "I used to go to church as a little girl..." There's probably not a single person in the western world that doesn't know the story of David and Goliath. The teenage boy who took on the war machine man killing giant... and won. What I want to share is this. The battle with Goliath didn't end when that stone hit his head. The battle ended when David used Goliaths own sword and completely severed the giants head from his body. The next part of the story goes like this... David then carried that head around everywhere he went as his trophy. All through the Israelite camp, all through the Kings courts dripping blood all over the place. Do you think that many people stopped him and told him he was making a mess? I doubt that very much.


Read the story for yourself in 1 Samuel 16 and pray and ask God to speak to you from it. My story is this, I grew up in a very broken home. My parents dabbled in witchcraft, new age beliefs, drugs and a whole lot of really bad spirituality before I was born. I learned later in life that the things our parents do can and are very often transferred to their children. As a result I lived a very disturbed childhood. For me to see apparitions and figures move across doorways was common place by the age of ten. I began hearing voices in my teenage years, things I cannot repeat. While I know this is probably scaring most of you there are a great percentage of you out there that know exactly what I mean - and so this is for you. Ever since the day I was born God put something inside me. Something quite strange and peculiar. He put a fight in me. A fire in my bones for justice and freedom. All my life I've been fighting, fighting authority, fighting society, fighting abuse, fighting manipulation, fighting greed, fighting the norms... sadly as it was done in my efforts most of that was a complete waste of time. But now I have a real reason to fight. I found the true reason to wage war... your freedom. I exist for quite a few purposes on this planet but one of them I know for sure is this. I exist to wage war. My war is with what haunts you, what torments you, what robs you, what lies to you, what hurts you and what keeps you chained.


I've learnt a few things about prayer over the years and it goes like this. If you let me pray for you it means I step into the fight with you. What it also means is this... I'm going to pay for it. I'm going to lose sleep, get hurt and cop it real bad from the enemy. But here's where that part that God put in me as a baby comes in... I was born for this. Some people have gifts of mercy, some gifts of teaching, some music and art... we all have something to offer. I'm offering a hand that's scarred from war. A heart that's been stitched up by my Master so many times I've lost count. I'm offering eyes that have seen way too much darkness for one lifetime. But most of all I'm offering you... Hope. Jesus said in John 8:32 "And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." You will never be free if you keep believing the lies. I'm here to tell you that depression is not a metal illness. It's not a disease. It's not a condition. It's not a hereditary trait. That's what 'they' want you to believe. Ask yourself, who do you want to believe? The ones who keep feeding you pills or some guy that sounds like he's either completely lost... or maybe he found it. Depression has an identity. It has a personality. It's a someone. Yeah, you just got the chills too didn't you...


Now, what if I told you this. Jesus can not only set you free from that Giant that taunts you - He can also make you stronger than it so that you can take it's head clean off just like David did on that battlefield. Why would He do that? Because it gives Him glory. He wants you to be free and in setting you free, it makes those around you wonder and ask the question "Can I be free too?". The answer is a resounding "Yes". Romans 8:37 says "We are more than conquerors through him that loved us." A conqueror is someone who wins their battle... but someone who is more than a conqueror is someone who after finishing their fight goes and joins someone else's fight for their freedom. Call me a glutton for punishment but I just wanna see people set free more than anything else in this world. Like I said above, I'm not here to tell you how it will be done. I could explain in detail exactly what happened to me when Jesus reached down and ripped out of me the evil that didn't belong and how it radically and completely changed my life forever but God doesn't want me to do that for the sake of pointing this all back to Him. Was it the church that saved me and set me free? No. Was it my giving or my service to God that saved me? No. Was it some special ritual or chant? No. God opened my eyes after doing it and revealed me to the catalyst that led to my complete freedom from depression... the death of pride.


You see, pride is us saying "I'll do it my way..." and that can go on for years and years even to the grave. For me, I got sick and tired of my giant and sick and tired of doing it my way and failing all the time and finally gave up and shared my pain with others allowing them to pray for me. What I didn't realize was that I did exactly what God wanted and put Him in the ultimate position to move in and deal the final blow to my enemy. James 4:6 says "God opposes the proud but favors the humble." And this is what I did, I humbled myself before God and others. As a result God said "Today's your day Mark. Those prison walls are coming down. Welcome to the real world son". Now, if that's you - and based on the national percentages of how rampant depression is in our western world - then you need help like I did. You need the same Jesus that I needed. Can I encourage you to read Psalm 18? Pray before you read it "Father, please open my heart to your Word and teach me what I need to know" and He surely will. The one David is talking about in Psalm 18 is Jesus. The Jesus you need to save you from depression. Pray and call out to Him. It doesn't matter who you are or what you've done. He died to set you free and He specializes in restoration and redemption for all. His arm is never short to save.


And if you need a soldier to pray I will gladly step into your war to fight with you. Am I going to pay for this big time? Yep. Is that going to stop me? No way. Message me using the button at the top of this page and I'd be honored to pray for you. You can be free from depression. Totally and completely free. But it can't be done your way. I had to learn to that too. It's gotta be His way. His Name is Jesus and only He can truly set you free.

[ John 8:36 - So if the Son sets you free, you will be free indeed. ]

"Never judge a book by its cover...you'd do far better to get to know The Author †". I've been judged and accused of many, many things by others. Some of them lies, some of them were truth and things I needed to pray, ask forgiveness for and humbly request God's help to change me. At the end of the day though, I don't exist to get public approval or for the opinions of others. I exist to be a humble signpost to God. Do I often fail at that? Yes... regularly. Is God's grace sufficient? Totally. It wasn't my friends, popularity or anything down here on earth that saved me from my pain and emptiness. It was simply and completely undeserved grace through faith in Jesus that saved me. And so, my focus isn't down here... It's on the One, the only One who had the power to save a broken, hurting, addicted lost boy like me. And He can save you too... from whatever it is that hurts you. Nothing is a match in the ring for the power and authority of His love for you. I challenge you to let go and trust Him and watch what He can really do... Call out to Him. 

I wanna share something God put on my heart and has had it there brooding for quite some time... I've prayed, studied and observed the church in the book of Acts for quite some time now and have to say that to date I have never seen a church in our current day and age that even comes close to what that church was and did. This church was a total explosion of the power, love and grace of God and grew exponentially on a daily basis. Just stop and think about that for a second... daily. This church didn't just have a structured religious Sunday service and a midweek bible study - it operated 24/7. The doors never closed. It was a place of prayer, refuge, help, love, peace, inclusion and family. The leaders there had a problem they had to resolve and do you know what that problem was? The leaders of the church were so busy waiting on tables giving out meals that they couldn't do the "normal" church functions. I'm not sure about you but I haven't seen that sort of problem in a church for a long, long time.


Leaders that willingly humble themselves and serve others. Leaders actually down on the peoples level. Just like Jesus hey. You see, these leaders actually got it. They actually understood and took hold of what Jesus said and did and ran with it - and God blessed it massively! Servant hood... plain an simple. There were no exalted positions, no hierarchy, no big salaries or fancy chariots rocking up in the car park before church. People would actually give up their riches to help each other. Can you imagine that? People would actually sell houses and land and give it to the church not so the leaders could get rich, fat and lazy but so that it could be distributed to help those who actually had need. It's what God wanted the Kingdom of Heaven to look like and because they captured the heart of God and made it real - God blessed it powerfully. People flocked to it and wanted to be a part of it because they didn't need to be convinced of Gods love by some fancy, hi-tech stage show presentation - they actually felt God's love the moment they arrived. The love was real. It moved, healed, gave and spoke. It looked like Jesus.


One of the biggest things that God revealed to me about the original church in Acts was this. Equality. No one was any better than anyone else. Love was the binding force that leveled out all of the useless positions that we so often see in the church today. Yes, I said useless and I won't apologize for it. Those given power by God are given it to help others - not themselves. Jesus taught this in Matthew 23 when He said to us "Call no man Father because you only have one Father and He is in Heaven, Call no one teacher because you have one teacher who is Jesus." Jesus also went on to say that we are simply brothers and sisters - equals. Sinners saved by the grace of God and that we exist simply by His grace and of no merit, effort or achievement of ourselves. Can you imagine a place where anyone could walk through the doors of a church and was accepted because of God's love, grace and mercy and not because of the acts that they had to prove to those in power? That place existed once and God used that church powerfully like a wildfire in that corner of the globe... we need that again. We need to capture that heart again. A heart that thinks, feels, sees and acts like our Father does. A heart that shows love, mercy and grace to all and where selfish ambition, greed and self exaltation dies at the door. It's time the real church arose, woke up and showed the world what true love is! 

What kind of King would give up His rightful throne, set aside His crown and leave the safety of His home in Heaven to die to save us at the hands of cruel murderers? What kind of Creator would willingly and knowingly sacrifice Himself in the ultimate way to redeem His broken creations? What kind of majestic Lord and supreme ruler would choose to become a servant of servants to teach us the true heart of His Father? How absurd, how ridiculous, how contrary to all we know...yet so profound at the same time. What is this love? So powerful, so radical, so immense.
He must have known something about our worth that we don't know to go that far. He must see with unbroken eyes to see past what we do with these crude fleshly portals. Lord, please reveal that worth and truth to your children...help us to see like you do...Help us to give as you did... Help us to become like you... † 

Have you ever met those people who it just seems everything in their life just goes right all the time? That their good days are nothing short of epic and their bad days even seem to outshine your good days like the sun compared to the moon? I'm here to tell you those people don't exist. Everyone has hard times - there are no exceptions in life. Some you can see and measure the effects from the outside, some hide it on the inside better than others but the truth is we all feel pain. We all hurt, we all bleed and we all need relief from what hurts us. So what do you do when the pain gets too much? Where do you go when the loneliness piles up as high as a mountain? What do you do when the words they said cut like knives? Where do you run? Is the bottle your answer? Maybe it's being in the arms of one you love? Maybe it's a drug of choice? Maybe accomplishments? More possessions? Maybe fame? Can your friends fix you? The simple truth is this - there is only one person who can mend your heart... The One who made it. There's only One who you can trust to work on your heart with the utmost precision and care it requires - the One who designed it. There's only One who can find all the broken pieces and put them back where they belong. Can I encourage you that if that's you, invite Jesus to that place of pain and allow Him to do what only He can do. He won't go there without your permission or consent because He loves and values you that much. He can make you whole again. †

[ 1 Peter 5:7 - Casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. ] 

I have nothing to prove and nothing to lose... I am simply a humble forgiven sinner who was shown extraordinary undeserved mercy by the Jesus the King of all Kings. It was my encounter with Him that changed my entire life within the space of 3 days completely shattering every shackle that held my soul. It wasnt my efforts, my lifeless religious acts or my futile will that finally set me free - it was the sheer power and authority of His love that blasted my prison of addiction, depression, sadness, shame, loneliness, suicide and death into ash that disappeared in the wind of His voice. I asked Him "why...? what was it that was different this time...?" His reply was "My love was always there and ready to save you...When you gave up your pride, I broke down those walls from the outside to bring you into the light." It was pride that was the last line of defense around my heart provided by my enemy the Devil to keep me chained. Once I sank the knife into pride, the towering walls around me came crumbling and crashing down under the immense weight of my Saviours love for me. I never knew what love truly was until that day. So vast, so powerful, so all encompassing. And then I realized that the one that had the power holding me prisoner all along was really me... Pride is a lie.  

Gods ways are so much higher than our ways... And I'm so glad for that. He never has a bad day. He never has a headache or needs some "me time". He's never too busy, too tired or just sick of our problems. He is ALWAYS there, ALWAYS ready to listen, ALWAYS caring. He is THE perfect Father. He is Unfailing, Faithful, True, Secure and Immovable. So no matter how rough things are... You always have a higher place to appeal to... Your Father in Heaven. You don't need to settle for sloppy seconds or go through a middle man to get to God. The veil of the Temple was torn that day Jesus died to give you full and direct access to the Father. He loves you endlessly and wants close and meaningful relationship with you.

[ Isaiah 55:9 - For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. ]

My King didn't go all the way up that dusty hill with a heavy, splintered symbol of death on His back for me to just sit around idle... He didn't surrender himself willingly to be accused, mocked and tortured for me to just sit back and smile... He didn't refuse the painkillers and take the easy way out that day when the sky plunged into blackness for me to play and party in the freedom He paid so much for... My Jesus didn't plunder hell itself leading the very capitivity that held us all captive now as His prisoner for me to just enjoy a golden ticket all expenses paid trip to Heaven. No... He died to buy my freedom with an absurdly high price and to make slaves into soldiers. He gave up everything to bring redemption, life and the power of God to the sons and daughters of men. His own words were "I came to cast fire on the earth and I wish it was already burning..." So start the blaze Lord... Let the wildfire begin again... Hear from Heaven as you did in the days of Elijah and send fire that burns white hot in our hearts. Awaken your army. For your Kingdom, your glory and for the freedom of all mankind! It's time their eyes are opened. It's time they knew the Truth.. Speak Lord, lead us. You are the true King †